5 years
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Grayon Wayne Munyer joined us in the flesh 5 years ago. Sometimes it feels like it's been less time, others feels like it's been longer. It seems so long since I held in my arms as we all watched him pass from this life to the next. Each year has been difficult in their own way without him. It's been a long 5 years with much that has happened.
Bryce graduated college.
I started college.
We moved to Utah.
Our apartment was broken into.
We moved to a different apartment.
In all this time we've been blessed with eight new nieces and one new nephew. (Can I just say what fun it is that there are so many girls? ---This is both sarcastic and completely not sarcastic at the same time)
We haven't had any more children.
It's interesting how different life can be after you lose someone you love so dearly. I feel like I'm a different person than I was before Grayson was born. I will always be a different person since Grayson. And I'm grateful for that.
On this day that would presumably be very difficult, various people in my life have helped me feel very loved--to the point that I don't want today to end. One co-worker brought me my favorite kind of cake. A great friend of mine and her boyfriend took Bryce and myself to get some ice cream. My office manager made sure I was doing okay--she kept checking in on me, as did another co-worker/friend. I received a sweet text from one of my aunts. Multiple people wished Grayson a happy birthday on facebook. This brings tears to my eyes as I recount all these simple, yet profound to me, things.
I miss my son everyday. I think of him every single day. So much so that it pains me that he isn't with us. I don't want today to end partly because I don't want it to be closer to his sixth birthday--because that's another year without him.
I do often find comfort in knowing that this is my forever family. These wonderful boys are my life right now and I'm so grateful to have the strength from my husband on this side and the strength from my son on the other side. It will always be difficult without my baby boy. But I can find pieces of comfort in knowing that I will see him again.
Grayon Wayne Munyer joined us in the flesh 5 years ago. Sometimes it feels like it's been less time, others feels like it's been longer. It seems so long since I held in my arms as we all watched him pass from this life to the next. Each year has been difficult in their own way without him. It's been a long 5 years with much that has happened.
Bryce graduated college.
I started college.
We moved to Utah.
Our apartment was broken into.
We moved to a different apartment.
In all this time we've been blessed with eight new nieces and one new nephew. (Can I just say what fun it is that there are so many girls? ---This is both sarcastic and completely not sarcastic at the same time)
We haven't had any more children.
It's interesting how different life can be after you lose someone you love so dearly. I feel like I'm a different person than I was before Grayson was born. I will always be a different person since Grayson. And I'm grateful for that.
On this day that would presumably be very difficult, various people in my life have helped me feel very loved--to the point that I don't want today to end. One co-worker brought me my favorite kind of cake. A great friend of mine and her boyfriend took Bryce and myself to get some ice cream. My office manager made sure I was doing okay--she kept checking in on me, as did another co-worker/friend. I received a sweet text from one of my aunts. Multiple people wished Grayson a happy birthday on facebook. This brings tears to my eyes as I recount all these simple, yet profound to me, things.
I miss my son everyday. I think of him every single day. So much so that it pains me that he isn't with us. I don't want today to end partly because I don't want it to be closer to his sixth birthday--because that's another year without him.
I do often find comfort in knowing that this is my forever family. These wonderful boys are my life right now and I'm so grateful to have the strength from my husband on this side and the strength from my son on the other side. It will always be difficult without my baby boy. But I can find pieces of comfort in knowing that I will see him again.
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